Pluto Key to Transformation,
Change in Eighth House of Power
READING: Eighth House of Power: Pluto is the key to change and transformation. RESPONSE TO OVERALL READING: The need to change and transform has driven me since I can remember. I absolutely could not understand anyone who didn’t think their life had a higher purpose. When I would see people satisfied just going about their day-to-day routines with seemingly no higher aspirations, I would think, “What a waste of a life!” TRANSFORMATIVE POTENTIAL: This reading made me realize that I have no idea, that perhaps accepting and enjoying day-to-day routines fulfills exactly another soul’s purpose or desire in this incarnation: Perhaps that person totally missed out on some very special experiences in a past incarnation because they were too busy to stop and smell the roses. As I am learning to put aside my judgment about others, I now look at everyone’s choices differently, including my own.
READING: This power to change will bleed into this lifetime. You came into the Barbara lifetime with the feeling of being inferior, not really knowing your power. RESPONSE: Feelings of inferiority have been a deep source of anguish for me since I can remember. Since I was little, my mother would get exasperated and ask me, “Why are you always so insecure?” Like as if I should know why! TRANSFORMATIVE POTENTIAL: This finally explains the source of my insecurities (as recounted in my memoir) and shows me that I chose to be born at the precise moment I did so that my soul could experience and overcome these difficult feelings in preparation for my next incarnation. With this understanding, I can begin to expend of those feelings of inferiority and realize that I am just as worthy as anyone else on this planet.
READING (the past lives whose energy is most prevalent in this life): The energy in these lifetimes was very fast moving, non-committed, detached, lacked bonding. Committing to anything gave you the heebie-jeebies. You were all about the knowledge, gathering the information, quicksilver, kind of a Peripatetic lifestyle. You had the ability to dedicate your life to service, to something. This is what’s very interesting. This is the only thing you were really dedicated to. Taking up the cause for others? Nooooo! Being committed to any one person? Nooooo! But only this service to something spiritual, something bigger than yourself. There’s a sense of isolation or retreat. RESPONSE: The apple didn’t fall too far from my past trees. This could just as easily be describing my current situation in this incarnation.
READING: There also could have been some persecutions for religious beliefs. Again, we see you were involved in some large authority structure, and it involved an issue larger than life. It could have been some great movement, and you were in the center. RESPONSE: In a past life reading I had 15 years ago, the psychic said very similar things, relating one past life to an underground kind of movement perhaps in the 1600s. Salem witch trials? Knights Templar? Freemasonry? They all intrigue me in this lifetime.
READING: So we have a pretty good idea who you were in your past lives, and we carry a cellular memory of this. But you also carry the shadow of Gemini, that feeling of small, no voice, inferior, I’m not special anymore. They can all manifest. RESPONSE: Ditto, from above. Must read memoir.
The Barbara Existence
READING: Now we’re talking about the current life, the Barbara existence. We have to go back to Pluto, which tells us the soul’s desire. We go to Pluto’s pseudo-polarity to ask, “Why am I here?” One or both of your parents were peculiar, different, and difficult. RESPONSE: Dad. Dad. Dad. READING: They were parents who had different cultures, different religions. RESPONSE: Dad was Catholic; Mom was Methodist. Dad grew up in the city; Mom grew up in a small town. Dad was raised in poverty; Mom was raised in the middle class. Mom graduated high school; Dad dropped out in 8th grade. Dad wasn’t good enough for Mom, so said her parents, who did everything shy of disowning her when they married. Decades passed before they would truly accept him.